He’s always been faithful.
This month has been hard. I feel as though my heart and mind have been physically wrung out. I recently entered into a season (hopefully a short season) of grief and pain. I have been surrounded by death and the hope for life. This month has been hard.
I felt anxiety try to wring out the peace and patience from my soul.
I felt sorrow try to wring out the joy from my heart.
I felt grief try to wring out the trust in God from my mind.
My body was physically and emotionally drained.
And yet, my God lingered still.
The Holy Spirit led me to force feed myself scriptures, even when I didn’t want to believe the words I was reading. Last night, I was worshipping and praying and pouring my heart out to my God. Desiring to trust in Him more, desiring to understand His ways, desiring to be comforted by Him.
And of course He lovingly responds. He reminded me of His story. His big picture. He reminds me that He was faithful to Joseph, Joshua, Moses, Rahab, Esther, Job, Hannah, Daniel, Mary, Paul, Peter, and the woman at the well.
Not only WAS He faithful. He is faithful STILL. Even though I can’t see it.
He restored the trust, peace, patience, and joy. He never let them leave me. He was faithful. He will be faithful to me.
He reminded me that I believe in a good God. I believe. I know. I am confident that He is a good, steadfast, faithful God.
And he is all I need.
Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer. – Romans 12:12
I waited patiently for the Lord; He inclined to me and heard me cry. – Psalms 40:1
I remember your name in the night, O Lord. – Psalms 119:55